I was so excited to put the finishing touches on this first project for 2015! It isn't perfect, the loopy loops aren't the same size, spacing isn't exactly the same for each letter, and a few letters are a little rough around the edges...but today I'm okay with it being imperfect. I really love thinking about these words filling space in our home. I was inspired by a piece Brent gave me on our wedding day and in the days leading up to the new year decided this would take place of my yearly , "Goals of (Insert Year Here)" paper. This is not at all anything against setting goals or having goals for 2015, I personally just didn't feel it was a healthy page title for me to purse this year.
Although I accomplished a handful of my 2014 goals, I realized over the span of the year that my goals for multiple reasons kept me trapped in a really negative space. Reflecting on 2014 I began a process with hopes to shift the current mindset that plagued the joy that should come with putting a check next to certain accomplishments. Problem number one, I found myself making polished goal lists of "things" and these "things" if only completed "perfectly" would mark success. Sounds so ridiculous when typing it out like that, but ya'll, turning off that push for perfection is my fight. Yes, the fight that I'll likely be in for the entirety of my life here on earth. As I finally accepted this fight of mine and decided to put on my boxing gloves against the looming enemy of perfection and the lies it brings, one word came to mind.
The word "Truth" commonly occurred in conversation, my thoughts, and what I found my heart longing for towards the end of 2014. I found it was very easy, to enjoy these truths during quiet time and know some were stored in my heart but they'd quickly be replaced by a mental battle in pursuit of some goal I created that had no relevance to anything fruitful for the kingdom of God. I decided that my list for the start of 2015 would be a list of foundational Truths formed from God's Word. Truths that would serve as the foundation for all the hopes and goals I have as a daughter of the most high king, wife, daughter to my parents, sister, friend, and artist. Goals for me pressed into the emotional shadows of darkness as I wrote many of them to hold a shining star of accomplishment in this world. I'm not saying bye to goals forever but am hopeful that filling my time with these truths will lead to creating healthy goals.
One of my favorite lyrics is
"your GRACE has found me just as I am"
and truth reminds me of the power wrapped in those words. God's Word is my best weapon in the fight against perfection because "just as I am" is so imperfect and broken.
So, this piece will serve as the start of Truth in our home. I'm already dreaming of the days we will have littles running around with their head just below where this canvas will hang and the day we can sit around the dinner table and talk about the these truths their dad and I decided on for our home during the days we were praying for family.